2005-08-03 - 5:32 p.m.
I've been taking fish oil and I think it makes me feel better, but I can't explain exactly how.
Am I just staying with DT because it's safe? Using him as my emotional safety net? He wants us to get married soon and start having babies. Sometimes I think I can have the life i want and still be with him, and other times I get the itchy sense that that's impossible--he is always harrassing me for wanting to see friends too much, I feel like he just wants us to see each other all the time. Plus the sex isn't exactly mind-blowing. And I'm not sure how to make it work better--his dick is just too big, it pokes me all funny, and I hate being on the pill, it makes me dry, and also when he fingers me he just seems to always miss the mark and I can't keep leading him back there. And honestly, his kisses are too soft.
I complain a lot. I'm unhappy at work today. Not much that's good has happened all day really, except the bag or jalepeño potato chips I ate before and a strikingly accurate INFP description I read online.
